What was I thinking?
What in the world could have possibly possessed me to change this many things at one time? I'm in a whirlwind of crazy and I can't find a single thing to focus on so I don't get dizzy. I need a beat to think about how to put this all together and make it work, but I can't afford that second. Yet here I am posting a blog about it. Maybe I should spend my time more wisely? Maybe I just know that doing something else right now would just frustrate me. I feel like I need a giant white board and I need to write out the steps to each day for myself and all of the kids so we know what to do and who is going to be where and how much money it's going to cost and how much we have left. I feel like I'm failing at being me at the moment and that is not a nice feeling. I am smart and I pick up new things quickly, but I feel completely inefficient at my new job, I feel like a brooding teenager! I want to yell "God! I just can't do anything right!" and slam a d...