Jessica Thinks

For 2 whole weeks I will be sitting at the front desk at my office. The office manager is going on vacation and I have been training as her back up since I started working there. I am kins of freaked out, but I think I will do fine. I really really hope nothing goes wrong though. I want to prove myself. I have been working hard to learn everything, but there is always the self doubt lingering in the back of my mind when I have to do something new for the first time. Lydia is really sick, and I tried hard to stay away from her as much as possible since there is no way I can take a day off if I end up contracting whatever it was she had. I cannot sleep on the bathroom floor while trying to run the office. Cross your fingers for me. I will just keep telling myself "You know what you are doing. you can do this."

I'm having a bad day. I hurt my back last night and it was still hurting badly when I woke up. I wanted to get the girls' room clean today, but that didn't happen. I had to take some pain medication just to sit peacefully on the couch. Josh took me to pick up the new phones Steve and I got. I wasn't thinking and I had them set up Steve's phone while I was in the store, which meant the phone he had with him at work today was useless. I fell asleep on the couch because I finally wasn't hurting so bad. Steve wasn't in such a great mood when he got home and I felt bad because the phone was frustrating him. I always get anxious when he is frustrated because I have a problem, where I take responsibility for whatever is irritating him. Even if it's not my fault. Then I feel guilty. Even though my back really hurts I feel like I shouldn't complain because Steve's back hurts every day. He has to take the same meds I took (once) every day just to be able t

I set a goal of raising $200 in donations for Malaria nets. I always set goals and think "that won't be so hard" but then I get no donations. The Malaria nets are only $10 each. So I figured I could try to get 20 people to donate a net. We will see though. I would love to feel like I worked on something that is actually saving lives. If you want to donate here is the website I set up http://www.globalproblems-globalsolutions.org/goto/killthebuzz I also posted it on Facebook. If you don't want to get emails from the foundation and all of that you can definitely contact me and send the donation to me by mail and I will make sure it is added to the total. In other news my living room is a completely different place than it was a week ago. It's kind of crazy. We got couched from a friend, we bought a new entertainment center, coffee table, end table, ottomans, book shelves and a dvd shelf. it was a total mess in here for days. We finally got our income tax return and