New Course, New frustrations

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I have moved on to my second course in school and it is so technical. I need to study so much harder and pay much closer attention. We have to bring in our own patients and everyone is having trouble with that task. Our first clinic day was nuts. I had fun working in the sterile area for most of the day. My mom, Steve and Kayla were all seen so they can be patients for the rest of my time in school. I am frustrated with myself right now because of school. I have still been doing well, but not as good as beofre. I need to get my butt in gear if I am going to meet my goal of 4.0 every course. I already lost my first goal of getting 100% on all of the spelling tests for the course. and I won't get perfect attendance either because of a major accident on 580 before tracy that made me miss half of a day. So no star pins for my name badge this course either.

One good thing about school right now is that I am making friends. I feel comfortable with everyone in class and even feel like I have been friends for years with a few of the girls.

I am planning my birthday party and that is also frustrating, because they want us to have a stupid one day insurance policy for $1 million. It's not that big of an issue becuse it's not really expensive, but it sucks because it is hard to find an insurance carrier that carries them.

I have gained about 4 lbs since this course started which is also frustrating. I need to get back on the ball with everything in my life right now. My frustrations are not with anyone else but myself at this point, which to me shows progress in my state of mind. I'm not blaming anyone for anything. I realize that I just need to try harder.

My depression and anxiety have been running rampant.I have been having extreme fatigue fits. I have been falling asleep on the couch very early in the evening and having 4-5 days a week where I cannot stop yawning. I have been sleeping almost 19 hours on Fridays because I have no school. I'm just so tired all of the time. On the other hand, I have been feeling like I left the stove on -- or I lost my wallet or something all of the time.

I don't really know what to put down for a rating, maybe depression 6-7, anxiety 6. I am going to try to post here more to get things off of my chest and help myself work through whatever is going on with me. Let me know if you have any suggestions for the fatigue. It's getting really hard to get up for school and I don't want to start being late. it will just make things more frustrating.

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