Jessica Thinks

To those of you who know me well, this post may seem a little strange because of it's religious subject matter, but I've been thinking about this for a few days now, and had to get it out there. I saw a news story about a shooting in an Amish community. One quote from the father of one of the victims really caught my attention and started a string of thoughts that I will try to explain here. This father, after losing his child basically said "I am thankful that the lord has the responsibility of judging his soul" (regarding the young shooter) To me this shows an ABSOLUTE trust in the lord. This man has no judgement of the boy who shot and killed his child. He trusts that the Lord will judge this kid, and feels thankful for the relief this gives him. I don't see this as meaning that this father is not saddened over the loss of his child, but it gives him comfort and takes the burden of judgment and hatred from him in a time when he should be focused on his mournin...

Man, I want to buy girl scout cookies more than ever this year. I thought the whole scout organization was run by people way out on the tip of the right wing. but I applaud the left of center stance the Colorado leaders are taking. You might already know that I am adamant about the fact that transgendered people are truly the sex they identify as, and not the sex they were born as. If a little girl wants to join the Girls Scouts, but she  happened to be born as a boy, then I say let her join. and the young girl who posted a video about boycotting girl scout cookies because of this is just full of hate and ignorance. A few things really get to me about this whole thing. One I don't believe this young girl came to this decision on her own. I think she was influenced by ignorant adults to go on this crusade against the cookies. Two How does telling people to Not but cookies help her cause? If she has a problem she should leave the girl scouts. If you don't believe what an organiza...

So here we go.... another year. What can I say about 2011? Well it was just as long as any other year, but I sure did accomplish a lot. I also failed a lot. so it all kind of evened out. I hope to tip those scales in the upcoming year.... towards the accomplishments of course. I have a few goals and ideas for this year, so I'm going to type them out here so I can come back and cry about the ones that didn't happen this time next year. (kind of like NaNoWriMo. lol) 1. Lose 25 lbs. This is totally doable. There are 52 weeks in a year so about 2 lbs a week will get me where I want to be. And that will put me back to where I was on my wedding day. That would be nice. 2. Read 50 books. OK so that's like a book a week and I'm already slacking, but I have decided that I am going to be forgiving with this one. If I read a 500 page book, that shit is counting as 2 books. Also I'm counting any chapter book, no matter how simple. I have a feeling there will be quite a few YA...

I am participating in National Novel Writing moth this year. I have a goal of completing a novel by the end of November. I will post updates here so keep an eye out for info. Here is a short blurb about the novel I will be working on. "Clementine and Piper have been friends since they were born, not that they had much of a choice. With mother's who have known eachother since they were in 5th grade it's kind of hard to ignore one another. Good thing they made the decission that they couldn't live without eachother at the age of 4. Piper's life is about to change dramatically, and as always Clementine is right by her side, but this time is different. Boys and parents and the usual issues that come with growing up, don't hold a candle to this new hurdle. Clementine isn't quite sure how to get her best friend through this, until she finds a journal in her mothers closet. This tattered notebook may hold the key. The shared diary of the previous generation of...

This is me. I am a Girl. Silly. Rambunctious. Frilly. Irresponsible. Curious. I am a Friend. Thoughtful. Fun. Supportive. Steadfast. I am a Mother. Loving. Selfless. Hopeful. Nurturing. Sentimental. Careful. I am a Wife. Loyal. In Love. Affectionate. Fair. I am a Woman. Emotional. Empathetic. Beautiful. Curvy. I am a Ginger. Temperamental. Feisty. I am Jessica. Anxious. Sad. Random. Sarcastic. Bored. Tired. Jealous. Snarky. Shy. Hungry. Smart. Obsessive. Rational. Bitchy. Animated. I swear. I yell. I smoke. I cry. I dance. I write. I sit. I read. I listen. I smile. I laugh. I work. I learn. I try. I give-up. I am a Contradiction. I am all of these things and more. This is me. I am what I am.

After months of being deployed to Afghanistan, my dear step-son finally got to come home. I was so glad to see him home and unharmed. We got to sit and talk, and then zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. Out like a light on the couch for 5-7 hours a day. Still on Middle Eastern time. I had to resist the urge to wake him up so we could hang out. I did get in some time with him in between him sleeping and me sleeping or working. It will be nice to have him home for a longer stretch starting next week. Hopefully he figures out when night time is so we can get a chance to do more than just listen to him snore. I just want to say that I am so proud of him. He is becoming a Man. He does however retain his old Joshiness, which I love! I am starting to come to grips with the fact that he doesn't live here anymore. Since he left for boot camp it's always been a temporary thing. "He'll be gone for 3 months." "He'll only be gone for 5 months." "He gets to come Home...

Nothing Gold Can Stay Nature's first green is gold Her hardest hue to hold Her early leaf's a flower; But only so an hour. Then leaf subsides to leaf. So Eden sank to grief, So dawn goes down to day. Nothing gold can stay. ~Robert Frost Love you Grandma!