Jessica Thinks

Earlier this year I cast a net to see if I could get enough people to join me for Relay for Life, so I could start my own team. I had one reply and it was far from a promise to join. Finally I decided that the only way to get people to join was to ask each person I wanted on my team directly. I actually got a great response that way, and I had a team of 10 in no time. We did our thing and raised our money and got our stuff together for the day of Relay. Relay for Life is a great fundraiser for the American Cancer Society. The relay lasts for 24 hours from 9am on saturday to 9am on sunday. One person from the team is supposed to be walking on the track at all times, but all of you can walk or just a few at a time. We all decided to stay for the whole 24 hours. At one point none of us were walking because we were all so tired, but I think we can plan it better next year. We rocked the theme laps, but we missunderstood it in the beginning and then we kept missing the judges. This is anot...

I have always been that girl. The one who isn't quite cool enough. The girl who sat in the middle. (figuratively) I wasn't a leader, but I wasn't a rebel or really a follower either. I kind of just drifted along blending in not doing anything extraordinary. Probably not really remembered for much besides having red hair, or being friends with someone who was remembered, or maybe for getting pregnant in high school - but even then I still managed to blend in. I wasn't even one of the people that were uncool to the popular kids, but cool within their own group. I wasn't ever really even in a group. I find as an adult I suffer the same fate. I think that as a person I am not thought of much. I have a few really great friends. they are both - yes I said both as in there are only two - old friends. OK that's kind of a lie. I do have 2 newer friends that have been amazing as well. so although my facebook says I have some huge number of friends, I actually have 4. (th...

Isnt it cute

My oldest daughter participated in the day of silence today to bring attention to LBGT teen issues. For her it was a way to honor the LBGT teens that have either comitted suicide, or been victims of hate crimes because of their sexuality. She amazes me with her open mindedness and compassion towards people who have to deal with descrimination because of who they love. She is a firm believer in the statement "Sex doesn't matter" She told me that if you love someone then it shouldn't matter if they are man or woman or in the process of changing from one to the other. What an amazing 12 year old. I am so proud of her. I have started a team for my local relay for life in Livermore, CA. I decided to get serious about it after a few months of tossing the idea around. It took all of 3 hours to get almost a full team of 10 ladies together. My husband decided to donate $100 which was my goal. So I raised my goal to motivate myself to continue collecting donations. I won't ...

Do you ever feel like you are the only one that really takes the time to understand things? I feel like I spend so much time trying to understand everything around me, and no one else really gives a shit. It's not necessarily a bad thing I just wonder if I waste a lot of my time figuring out things that don't matter at all. Should I just accept that things are the way they are, and things happen the way they happen and people act the way they act, and there's no rhyme or reason behind it? It is what it is because it is what it is...... My doctors appointment went fine. basically there is nothing wrong with me according to my physical and blood work. But I am still convinced that my hormones are off how else can they explain the fact that I have like a 50 day cycle? It doesn't make any sense. My meds are staying the same which is fine because I am happy with them right now. My extraction also went well. I was in pretty bad pain fr about 4-5 days, but I went back to work ...

I have been out of meds for over a week now. I got them yesterday and took one before bed as usual. I slept ALL day. I didn't wake up until around 6pm. I was sad and angry as soon as I woke up. I have been in a slump all night. Josh left for base tonight from SFO and I wasn't there. I feel terrible about it, but we did already say our goodbyes. I was looking forward to going to the celtic festival in Sonora, but we didn't do that either. I don't know that today would have turned out better if I hadn't slept through the majority of it, but I just feel like a waste right now. Tomorrow is back to work. I'm nervous that the person I was filing in for is going to be pissed about how I did things while she was gone, but I tried my best to fill her shoes. It's been crazy and not having all of the information I would need to do the job correctly wasn't my fault. Hopefully I can get back into the groove of chairside quickly and with out too many interuptions from...

We just got home from dropping josh off at his moms house. He will be tnere until sunday then he goes back to base until the 21st, which is when he leaves for afghanistan. We had fun last night.i have some hilarious videos to watch when I get sad. Maybe I should watch them now.... I cried about 1/2 the way home. I posted some pics of us outside the house before we left.so sad right now.i miss him already.